Things have really been busy lately...I have finally finished my Chrissie shoping which is a great relief:)
Work has been really full on, and the boys have so much to do at this time of year!
Weight is still going down slowly 92.4 last week:)

I was sent this today so I thought I'd share for all you mothers out there:

Before I was a Mom:
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a MomI never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom -I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache,the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

I'm back...

Sorry about my extended absence from blogging - it is mostly due to having no phone connection for over a month - very frustrating!!
Also things have been so busy that when I do get a chance to get online...time is limited!

Things are going great here - lots of work, lots of study and things with the boys...I can't wait for the holidays to get a rest!

My weight went back up a bit while I was gone...but I am happy to say that it's coming down slowly - last weeks weigh in saw 93.7.

The last few weeks I have stopped stressing about points/fat/cals etc and just tried to eat when I am hungry and just not go overboard on crap...it seems to be working, small loses and less stress...lets hope I can keep it up:)

Busy weekend...

I tried my new program - it is very different, using some equipment that is new to me, which is great to keep me motivated:)

Yesterday, after I did my shopping I went for a walk with my Dad - we are planning on walking every Thursday - it is great for me as he will whinge if I don't turn up...lol
Dad has had operations on his knees in the last year, so as well as wanting to lose weight, he also needs to move to keep his knees going.

We have a busy weekend planned....tonight Jason is going to scout camp, he was packed last night, he is really excited as at the moment he is making the leap between cubs and scouts and was invited to camp with them - I think the fact that his little brother isn't going makes it even more exciting.

The lancefeild Show is on this Sunday, I am part of the organising committee so after work on Saturday I will be there setting up, and we will be there all Sunday.
Some family will be up for the show, so we will end up having drinks afterwards Sunday night for my Birthday (Monday).

As I reached my first mini goal already (jeans fitting), I have thought of a new one. For work I was told to buy a Christmas t-shirt to wear in Dec instead of our uniform. I brought one yesterday which does fit, but shows my rolls, I could wear it now, but I will feel more comfortable if it was a bit looser - so my next mini goal is to be able to wear the t-shirt and not feel totally self conscious in it!!

Well must get the kids off to school...and head off to the gym:)

I lost!

Last week: 95 kilos
This week: 94.2 kilos
Lost: .8
Left to lose: 29.2

Very happy with that loss, goes to show I can go away and still lose:)

Had a great weekend - went for a walk near the lake on Saturday morning with my Dad which was nice to spend one on one time with him. Eating was ok - had takeaway for lunch, then buffet for tea. Only had two drinks though - mixed with diet coke as I was driver.

On sunday while everyone else was hungover I walked to the cemetary to put some flowers on Nan's grave. Then we all went out for lunch before coming home.

Another thing....I wore my Jeans!!!! So that is one mini goal out of the way...will have to think of another one now!

I have a gym assessment today, to write up a new program which will be interesting!

Thankyou for all your support, it really helps keep up the motivation:)

Things are still going well, this morning I walked the kids to school with Sarge instead of going to the gym - I have to go to work at 12pm, then we are going to Yarrawonga for the weekend for a friends 50th. We are staying at my Uncles house and I have free rein in the kitchen, so eating should not be a problem, except for the night of the party. I have already offered to drive, so I won't be drinking.
I have also planned to go for a walk near the lake with my Dad on saturday morning - and will go on Sunday too while all the others are still asleep and hungover. It is really nice walking up there, so many memories of all the holidays while growing up:)

Well I must go pack and get ready for work - Hope everyone has a great weekend:)

Quick update...

I weighed in Monday morning at 95 kilo's.

I have done my measurements. I have been drinking water.
I went back to the gym...I forgot the feeling afterwards...felt like I could do anything!!!

My first mini goal is to fit back into my jeans...there is about an inch gap...I would love to be able to wear them by my birthday:)

The holidays are over...

The boys are back to school tommorow...which means I can get back into a routine that includes going back to the gym on a regular basis, it has been ages since my last visit.

Now is the time to get my butt into gear...clothes are getting tight...I can't wear my jeans anymore....this has to stop!

It is my birthday in two weeks and I want to start feeling good about myself...no time like the present to start!!

I have written up a plan that has exercise written on as appointments so I can work around things I need to do - I have been so unorganised lately....I am a list person so it will help having to cross these things off.

I am also going to go back to writing my food down in a notebook.

I will post my weight in the morning with some measurements, so I can keep track of things. (after I get back from the gym, of course!)

The Guest House

This was sent to me today;

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still, treat each guest honourably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice -

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

I have been a really bad blogger - the boys are on school holidays at the moment, and I have been busy trying to keep them occupied:)

We have gone out a fair bit, watched some movies, caught up with friends - it has been nice being able to sleep in and not rush around. My Dad picked them both up yesterday and has taken them camping...they will be gone till Tuesday night, I miss them already...the house has been so quiet:)

I have got alot of jobs done - cleaned out the fridge, got rid of my washing pile - so am feeling much more relaxed - later I am going to go have a look at a book sale before heading off to work.
Tommorrow I am starting a retail course at work - feeling a bit excited/nervous as it has been years since I have studied - the course goes for about 18 months...eeek

On wednesday we will be taking a day trip to Bendigo to go get a scout uniform for Jason, now that he is 10 and a half he will be linking between cubs and scouts - we went to Highpoint last week to get a uniform but the shop (snowgum) had closed down and Bendigo is the next closest - it's a bit of a drive, so we will take our time and have a look around - I have not been there for years. My Aunty lives there so we will try to catch up, she used to live in Eaglehawk, we used to spend alot of time up ther so I will show the boys the spots we used to hang out!!

On thursday they will be staying with my Dad again as I am working - I will pick them up after work Friday afternoon and Vic will be taking them camping in Yea with some of his mates - so they can't complain of being bored...lol

Food has been just OK - it's hard with the boys home - but I am in a better frame of mind, so will be back to hitting the gym once school starts again:)

Now I'm off to go catch up on google reader - over 80 posts to read!!

Unmotivated...

I have been feeling very unmotivated of late - I think the stresses of the last few weeks have caught up with me!

I have been working extra shifts, as there are a few people on holidays - Sunday's have been my only day off - which doesn't leave much time for other things - when my house is cluttered I can't think straight!!

Last week Malcolm was in another accident - this time he was on the back of a taxi and it took off - resulted with Mal in hospital with a fractured skull - on the Sunday he had an op to remove a blood clot from his head, very scary! This weekend I got a phone call to come pick him up as he was camping with mates and a tree branch fell on his head - and blood was gushing...so a few hours spent in Kilmore hospital!!!
He did have the cheek to ask me if I would take him back to his friends afterwards...I don't think so!!!
So he has been under careful watch at my place ever since:)

Good news is that Vic's Dad is doing really well - and is enjoying nursing home life:)

My weight has gone up a bit (too scared to get on the scales as I know it will depress me) - I know I need to focus again - but I think I am getting a bit sick of always having to watch what I eat/drink - I just wanna go along like a normal person, not having to think about cals/points/etc. It has been years that I have been 'watching my weight', and I think it's starting to stress me out!!!
So I think I might take a bit of a break - try to eat normally - try not to stress to much!

Gym has been a bit non existant too - because of the extra workload. Once the school holidays are over (they start on Friday) Things will be back to normal, I can't wait to have contol over my days - organisational freak that I am:)

This was sent to me today - I thought it was quite good:)
Things just plugging along here...nothing much to add!!


1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me alone.

2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and leaky tire

3. It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbour's newspaper, that's the time to do it.

4. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

5. Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else.

6. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

7. If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.

8. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

9. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.

10. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

11. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

12. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

13. Some days you're the bug; some days you're the windshield.

14. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

15. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.

16. A closed mouth gathers no foot.

17. Duct tape is like "The Force." It has a light side and a dark side, and it holds the universe together.

18. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.

19. Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving.

20. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

21. Never miss a good chance to shut up.

22. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.

Sorry I've been a really bad blogger - I had not realised that its been so long since my last post!!

I have spent most of the morning catching up on what you are all getting up to on google reader...I didn't have time for comments...sorry!

First thing - Vic's Dad is starting to improve - which is such a huge relief, when he was at his worst (when Vic was over there) they took him off antibiotics as there seemed to be no use continuing - great thing is that going off them has made him better, his skin is not peeling anymore, the blood infection has cleared and he is sitting up in bed!! At this stage they are looking for a nursing home to put him in, as he still has dementia - so at times doesn't know where he is.

Things are still busy here - my supervisor had a heart attack last week, so work has been really busy, with extra shifts....at the moment Sunday is my only day off...and Sundays have been busy, yesterday we had dinner at Dads with the whole family which was nice, next week it's Mums birthday...which is another dinner. I am really looking forward to the school holidays coming up, so I can get a break...lol

Weight - I just checked my last weight entry
Last weigh in 94.4
This week 93.5
Lost 0.9
Total lost 1.6
Left to lose 28.5
It's not a big loss considering how long it has been, but I'm happy it's going downwards...I really need to start concentrating on doing more to be successful:)

Well must go get some housework done, Ciao!!

No real news as yet - Vic's Dad is still not doing well and its looking like it's only a matter of time before he goes, at the moment he is not recognising anyone, and has been talking as if he is back in the old days when he used to serve on the ships. Vic said he had a 'good' day on monday when they visited, he talked about his family and other things in the present - but since then he has gone back in his own world.
Vic is coming home this afternoon, he has said his goodbyes.
The DRs expected him to pass away already...but he has been hanging on, so it could be a week or so - Vic feels that in a way he has already gone, since his memory has.

The boys are going to be happy to see their Dad again - even though they have been speaking to him on the phone, they have been missing him terribly.

Long time between posts...

Things have been very stressful lately,

At the start of the week Vic's Dad was found collapsed on his bedroom floor and rushed to hospital, by Friday he was in intensive care...and has just been getting worse. Vic went to Tassie this morning on the first flight out and has spent most of the day with his Dad...He and his other siblings will be meeting again with the dr's in the morning...but at this stage it looks like all they can do is keep him comfortable until he passes away.
The boys and I are planning to stay home until then...the boys saw him while he still remembered who they were...so they will have good memories of their Poppy.

Affirmation

TODAY

Look in the mirror

And notice

That person

Who greets you

Is beautiful

TODAY

Say to yourself

You know nothing is

Impossible

Remind yourself that

Everyone of your dreams

Is within Reach

TODAY

Think about all of

The People who love you

Who see the beauty in you

And begin to look at yourself

In the same way

Just checking in...

Things are still going along nicely - weighed in yesterday and LOST weight for the first time in a long time:)

Last week 95.1
This week 94.4
Lost 0.7
Total lost 0.7
Weight left to lose 29.4 kilo's
( to reach goal weight of 65 kilo's)

I am going to love watching that 29.4 go down:)

P.s Wanna - that pic was taken in my loungeroom, you can see a bit of the dining room over my shoulder, our house isn't huge - just high and really open:)

Things are going great at the moment - taking the time out to plan has really made a difference!!

I know what I will be eating and when, and my personal trainer has my exercise planned out...everything is falling into place!!

I have not peeked at the scales yet, but for the first time in ages I am confident on a loss:)

On Monday I also did my measurements and got Jason to take a 'before' photo...It's not the best, but ya get the idea:)

I am hoping to see a change really soon!

Firstly I want to send a huge congratulations to Hayley and Adam on the birth of their new daughter, it sounds like Hayley had a long labour...can't wait to see the baby pics:)




Sunday= Plan Day
Today I will start planning again!!!

I am a bit of a list person, and have always been organised ~ at the moment none of that is happening (and it has been driving me crazy!) and I have been neglecting myself lately, life has been busy, with school holidays breaking up my routine...it's been hard to 'get back into it' and I have also been doing extra shifts at work - I wasn't at all surprised to see 95 kilo's on the scale this morning, most meals the last few weeks have been quick and easy, if I have cooked at all!
My sister said to me the other day, if she didn't know better she would think I was pregnant!!, and she is right, lately I have gained a lot of weight around the middle (between boobs and waist) - I can still fit comfortably into my jeans and work pants, but my shirts are bursting at the seams. If I keep going on like this I will be at 100kilos before long (and that is not a milestone I wanna reach). So today is the day to nip it in the bud!!

I already have exercise doing well - I need to concentrate on my eating!
So this afternoon I will be going though my recipes and planning my meals out - if anyone has any lunch/dinner ideas I would love to hear them:)

Hey Lyn - we live in Lancefield, it is around the middle of Victoria!



It was very surreal, even though the snow melted as it hit the ground in closer towns like Woodend, it was actually covered:)

It's a beautiful sunny day here today:)



I am all revved up for the gym this morning I am planning on doing the podcast while I am on the cross trainer - I have been given a new program lately and every 4-5 sessions I do cardio only, so I am hoping to do the podcast for those sessions to keep me motivated....I will probably be on week 1 for a month...but I don't care:)

Thanks to Zanna I have found the podcast I need - and it is downloading at the moment...fingers crossed no problems this time:)

I skipped the gym this morning - it is so windy here I was worried about driving in it....I'm glad I stayed home though... as it has started snowing!!!
It looks so cool, I tried to take a photo but you can't really see.... and it melts as it hits the ground - just watching it fall looks so calming :)