Saturday, December 30

Feeling like*&^*!!
I weighed myself this morning and was horrified to see the number blinking back at me 88.7 ... I have been feeling depressed about my weight going up lately ...and stupidly have just been in denial....but now it is so close to 90 which really scares me - especially since I was down to 79.5 in October....what am I doing to myself???
I really need to get my shit together, starting TODAY - If I wait till after New Years, staying on the same track I will be close to a hundred in the new year....I can't let that happen!!!
Gosh, my clothes are getting tight, I don't want to have to buy a biiger shirt for work when I go back on the 16th - I am supposed to be getting into the smaller one!!
The last week I have been so good in the mornings...then everything goes to shit during the afternoon.

I need to exercise...can't remember the last time I did anything regular....sorry Sarge!
I need to drink water instead of alcohol...I find I eat more when I am drinking!
I need to get back to planning my meals and tracking what I eat...have not done that in ages.
I need to get my motivation back!!

So starting right now I am going to try to make a more concentrated effort...wish me luck!!

Thursday, December 28

I Believe:

I believe the sun will rise tomorrow,
I believe the sun will go down every night,
I believe there is something out there,
I believe I can achieve my dreams,
I believe everything does happen for a reason,
I believe I do not understand why some things happen,
I believe I can change the way I feel,
I believe I am a wonderful human being,
I believe I am beautiful,
I believe I am worth loving,
I believe in miracles,
I believe I can achieve anything I put my mind to,
I believe I can be loved, and give love,
I believe by sharing my problems the world will be a better place,
I believe no matter how bad my life is, someone has it worse,
I can overcome anything because I believe I can, and will.

By: Carol Baulch.

Wednesday, December 27

Here is my brother Brendan, his partner Renee and baby Tyson
This is me holding Tyson - he is such a good baby, he slept in my arms for most of the afternoon

I hope everyone had a great christmas!!
here is Jason and Luke in front of the tree:)

I have more photo's - but blogger is being a real pain!

We had lunch at my sisters place ~ it was nice to catch up with family~ it is not often that we are in the same place all together:) Over the last few weeks I have eaten way to much and drunk way to much wine ~ I took a sneek peek at the scales and it was so bad I cannot write the number!! So at the moment I am in "damage control" - I am hoping I can get the numbers down for my first weigh in on the 14th Jan!

Tuesday, December 19

Hi guys - I have sorted my modem problem...yay!!
have heaps to say, but not sure where to start, so i will leave you with this while I go catch up on some blog reading...


Santa goes on the Atkins diet;
Cookies and milk out; eggs, beef, chicken, cheese in
North Pole Santa Claus announced today in his annual pre-holiday press conference that he has begun the popular Atkins diet, and is asking for help from families around the globe. Atkins dieters are allowed to consume large amounts of high-fat foods such as eggs, beef, and cheese. Carbohydrates, which are found in pasta, breads, and fruits, and sweets, are not allowed.
Mr. Claus said that he decided to start the diet after he could not fit into the trousers he wore to deliver gifts last year.
"I couldn't bring myself to buy new trousers, and I haven't had a good body image lately. I had to do something, and quick", said Claus. "Having a belly like a bowl full of jelly is one thing, but being a complete fat ass is another. I mean, even my jolly little toe has fat on it." According to inside sources, Mrs. Claus may have also played a part in his decision to lose weight.
An elf, who wished to remain anonymous, said that Mrs. Claus "is getting more and more involved" with day-to-day operations, especially as Christmas nears. "She pretty much runs the toy factory, and she is making all the elves work a lot of overtime. Plus, she made us all sign waivers saying we wouldn't sue if we got injured on the job. Now, Santa suddenly goes on the Atkins diet? I guarantee that is her doing. She's a real pain in the ass. We've all started calling her 'Yoko'".
Santa says that his goal is to lose twenty pounds before he delivers gifts on Christmas Eve, leaving him plump, but not grossly obese. And, says Claus, he needs everyone's help to stick to his diet.
"I am asking the families of the world to leave snacks for me that are low in carbohydrates. Unfortunately, this means that the traditional snack of cookies and milk is not acceptable. Good alternatives are scrambled eggs, cheese, beef, or chicken."
Experts agree that a thinner Claus may be a healthier Claus, but think that the new snack requests may spoil some of the fun and tradition of Christmas.
"I think it's great that Santa wants to lose a few pounds", says holiday expert Michelle Bosler. "But a great Christmas traditions is being altered. Leaving cookies and milk for Santa Claus dates back hundreds of years. I don't think families will enjoy scrambling eggs or broiling a T-bone for Santa quite as much. And these low carbohydrate snacks are much more expensive than a couple of store bought cookies."
Despite the criticism, Claus vows to stick to his Atkins diet. "I'm going to do this. I've tried other diets, and I just can't stick to them. I mean, have you ever had a SlimFast shake? Tastes like liquefied wood."
North Pole spokesperson Sandy Ashton said that if families are uncomfortable leaving eggs or meat as a snack, they could opt to leave no snack at all.
"We'd rather Santa not have a snack than eat foods that are high in carbohydrates. For families who don't wish to leave a low-carb snack, we ask that they leave a note of encouragement for Santa, or some bourbon, which is a low-carbohydrate beverage. Dieting is difficult, and he needs support if he is going to succeed." - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Monday, December 11

I am still here ... things are pretty hectic at the moment!!
It has been so hot here lately, and smoky from all the fires that are burning around the state.

I weighed in on thursday and lost 100g - which is ok, my goal for the next few weeks is to try and maintain - It has been hard with numerous lunches and dinners...and I have not exercised much in this hot weather. Last year(and the year before that!) over christmas I gained 3 kilo's - so to lose a little or stay the same will be the best outcome for me....then I will start anew in the new year!!

My youngest brother Malcolm, came home with me on thursday and spent a few days with us which was nice...the boys had a free day on friday - I got the boys santa photo done and we all went and finished our christmas shopping!
Then we went and visited my new nephew (my other brother Brendan, first baby) which was born on 2nd dec...he is so tiny, was only 5 pound 6 oz - I didn't have my camera on me, so will have to make sure I have it next time....feeling very clucky...lol

I have finally sent out the christmas cards...I feel really bad this year as I normally make the cards. but with working I just have not had the time...so just shop brought ones this year!
Yesterday the boys and I spent most of the day making chocolates to give as gifts... at school they have kris kringle - but it has to be something made - not brought, I will make up a box for Vic to take to work to share in the luch room...and take the rest for the family on christmas day!
The boys had fun squishing candy canes to put in the choc, and mixing white and milk choc...made heaps of mess though!
Well have heaps to do...hope everyone had a great weekend:)

Wednesday, December 6

Tuesday, December 5

A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee...You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her.
She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up.
She was tired of fighting and struggling.It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire.Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans.
She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.
In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners.
She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see."
"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.
Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft.The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.
The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.
The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.
The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.
The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
"Which are you?" she asked her daughter.
"When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond?
Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
"Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. You might want to send this message to those people who mean something to you
(I JUST DID); to those who have touched your life in one way or another; to those who make you smile when you really need it; to those who make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down; to those whose friendship you appreciate; to those who are so meaningful in your life.

Monday, December 4

Bloggers Christmas dinner

Here are some of the photo's from my camera!
Phil, Jadey and Linda!
With Jadey!

......with Beckie!!


Phil, myself and Linda!
What a beautiful, friendly bunch of ladies!!
It was great to finally meet up with everyone...definetly worth the long drive!!
- and the butterflies were gone almost instantly!!
I just can't get over how tall everyone was...I really feel like a dwarf...lol
It was a shame that I didn't get to spend alot of time talking with you all, so I am really really looking forward to the next one:)

Friday, December 1

Here is a pic of our christmas tree, which we put up last night!

Weighed in yesterday and lost .9 - it is great to finally have a loss after being out of wack for the last few weeks!

I am hoping that over the next few weeks, which includes many lunches/dinners/drinkies is to at least maintain my weight!
At work I have told the girls in the kitchen not to let me put my hand into the m&m's jar - and it has really made a difference this week...we also have been very busy with christmas functions, so I am not standing around 'snacking' - lots of walking around ( I must really get myself a pedometer!!)

I am hoping that I don't get off work too late to meet some of you guy's on sat night... hopefully I can get off by 10.30 to meet you all around 11.30....I am a bit nervous...but can't wait!!