Hope you had a great Easter, whatever you got up to during the long weekend:)

My brother is still in hospital – so most of the time was spent keeping him company. He has been having surgery (on Good Friday and Easter Sunday) to cut out infected tissue and to drain fluid. After the last one he has a machine connected (VAC) to draw out the oxygen to help the healing process – I took a look at the Dr’s notes and he is to be hooked up to this machine until the 25th of this month, so it’s looking like it will be quite a while till he will be able to come home – since after all this, he will need skin grafts to fix the holes (3 at the moment) in his leg.

I have been reading the Peaches and Cream website forum which was started by the lovely Brooke… a subject which I have found really interesting after reading Brooke’s, Kate’s and Lisa Jane’s blogs…it’s not a diet, just being more aware of your eating…not depriving yourself.
At the moment with life being so busy, any eating plans, and exercise plans have completely been abandoned, between having the boys on holidays, working and spending time with Malcolm I have not had much time for anything else. To top it off my washing machine broke down the other day, so now I have to add trips to the Laundromat as well. I am so tired. I have found the last few weeks I have eaten chocolate everyday in the evenings, as a comfort, the kids and hubby have gone to bed so I can have a bit of ‘Me’ time!

I have been listening to my body the last day or so ~ even though my eating has been less than ideal, last night I was watching TV when everyone else was sleeping ( I have become a night owl of late) and I knew there was left over Easter chocolate in the pantry, I was so close to get up and eat it, but I said to myself, I don’t really feel like choc, I just want it because it is there – it felt great not to eat it for no reason, I think this IE makes a lot of sense. I am not drinking water religiously like before – but now I find I am craving water (like I used to crave soft drink) –which is great!
So…even though I am not focusing on losing weight at the moment…at least I am still learning something…Thank you Brooke for starting the forum:)

Had a sneak peek on the scales and it wasn’t great – I’m not going to stress about it now. I believe stressing over negative things doesn’t help. I am doing my best to find positives in everything, as being negative just brings me down, and make me feel depressed, and I really hate feeling that wayJ

I have been listening to others around me and am really noticing the negativity in my family, being around all that makes me feel blah and I compensate by eating.
NO MORE!!!
Now my main priority is Vic and my boys – I don’t want my boys to grow up in the negative environment that I did.

One thing that had really worried me lately is that when Jason is bored, he goes straight to the pantry for a snack….did I teach him this??
How can I break this cycle?? I don’t want to teach my boys unhealthy eating habits!!

Well this has gotten a bit long…you deserve a medal if anyone is still reading:)
Have a great week!!